The Sacred Mess of Motherhood

I used to believe real mothers were made of calm smiles and flawless routines...
women who could fold laundry while whispering affirmations, who never raised their voices, who glowed in every family photo.
Then I became one.
The myth that cracked soon.
At my nineteen, I held my first daughter and realised the story was already broken.
There was milk on my shirt, fear in my chest, thunder in my love. Perfection shattered before it could even land, and something truer slipped through the cracks: a love ferocious enough to survive chaos. Motherhood, it turns out, is not porcelain. It’s volcanic ash and wildflowers growing through pavement. It’s the ache in your spine at 3 a.m. and the giggle that follows five minutes later, reminding you why you stayed awake in the first place.
Mess as initiation.
With each child, Michaela, Dominik, Neli, and tiny Isabella, my definition of “sacred” stretched wider:
• Sacred is the moment you choose to breathe instead of scream, even though cereal is covering the floor and your inbox is on fire.
• Sacred is letting them see you cry, teaching that tears are teachers, not flaws.
• Sacred is saying “I’m sorry” to a six-year-old because you snapped, and watching forgiveness bloom faster than shame.
The mess isn’t a detour on the spiritual path. It is the path, a proof that divinity lives in dirty dishes, mismatched socks, and the wobble between exhaustion and euphoria.
Losing... and finding myself.
I won’t pretend I’ve never lost myself.
There were seasons when I played martyr, stacking everyone’s needs above my own until my body whispered enough through migraines and hollow eyes. Healing began the first day I rolled a yoga mat onto a toy-strewn floor and chose five minutes of breath over five more minutes of self-neglect. It continued when I let cacao ceremonies replace gossip, when I swapped punishment charts for moon cycles, and when I placed a crystal on my nightstand. Not for aesthetics, but to remind me that energy matters more than appearances.
What my children really need:
They don’t need a spotless house or a mother who never breaks but...
• Presence more than presents.
• An adult willing to apologise, modeling repair over repression.
• A witness to their wonder, someone who sees the universe in their mud pies and monster drawings.
• Her own joy, because kids trust happiness they can smell, not lectures they can recite.
When I honour those needs, they gift me something back: permission to be wildly, imperfectly human.
An invitation for you
If your motherhood looks nothing like the magazines... welcome to the sisterhood of the sacred mess.
Hold your child tonight and let the chaos be holy. Let the dishes wait while you dance barefoot to one song. Let your body rest before your to-do list does. And when shame whispers you’re failing, answer with a laugh: “We’re making art, not replicas.”
Because every sticky fingerprint on the window is a signature of life. Every weary sigh is a prayer in disguise. And every time your heart breaks open, you widen the circle of love big enough to hold you all.
With love,
Michaela
Why Stop Now?
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Yes as a ticket to belonging:
There was a time in my life when I said yes far too often.
Yes to things I didn’t want to do. Yes to conversations that drained me. Yes to people who didn’t really see me. Yes to being available, even when I was deeply tired.
I thought that saying yes made me kind. That it meant I was loving, spiritual, generous. I was afraid that saying no would make me selfish. Harsh. Less of a good woman, a good mother, a good friend. But what I didn’t realise was that every time I said yes when I meant no, I was abandoning myself. Slowly. Quietly. Almost invisibly.
It started in the body. My breath became shallow. My jaw clenched when I smiled. My heart beat faster in rooms where I couldn’t be honest. I told myself this was just motherhood. Just being busy. Just being strong.
But the truth was, I was tired. Not just tired in my bones, tired in my soul. Tired of shrinking. Tired of holding back my truth to protect everyone else’s comfort.
The first time I said no and meant it, I felt like I had broken something.
I sat with tears in my eyes, guilt in my throat, and that little girl inside me asking, “Are we allowed to do that?” But something shifted. Something opened. And the second time I said no, it felt a little more like freedom.
What surprised me most was this: the people who truly love me didn’t leave.
They respected me more. And I began to respect myself. No became a sacred word. A word with weight and warmth. It didn’t mean rejection. It meant redirection. It meant: I am honouring myself now, too.
When I say no now, it doesn’t come from anger.It comes from clarity. No, I can’t do that today -I need rest. No, that doesn’t feel aligned right now. No, thank you, I’m choosing something slower, something softer.
And that no… it opens space.
For breath. For peace. For the kind of yes that comes from truth, not pressure. I started saying yes to different things.
Yes to mornings without alarms. Yes to work that feels like service, not sacrifice. Yes to honest conversations and friendships that go both ways. Yes to play with my children that isn’t squeezed between tasks, but lived fully. Yes to rest, without guilt.
In all of this, I’ve come to understand that saying no is not about creating distance. It’s about creating depth.
You don’t need to explain your no. You don’t need to defend your boundaries to be worthy of having them. You don’t need to sacrifice yourself to be good.
You are not here to be endlessly useful. You are here to be real. To be whole. To be at home in your body, in your days, in your heart.
If you’re learning to say no too - even shakily, even in whispers...
Know that you are not closing the door to love.
You are making space for the kind of love that doesn’t require self-abandonment. And that, to me, is the most sacred yes of all.
With tenderness,
Michaela
I'll take you to the beginning...
I was born on a cold January morning in 1988, in a small town in the Czech Republic. A country still shaking off the weight of communism. Everything around me was structured, practical, heavy with expectations. From the very beginning, I felt like I didn’t belong. I asked too many questions. I felt too much. I never understood why we were expected to sit quietly, memorize facts, and not wonder too loudly about the world.
I always sensed there was more.
I didn’t know it then, but my soul was already whispering: you weren’t born to obey. You were born to remember.
At nineteen, I became a mother.
Most people saw it as a mistake. But it was the most sacred initiation of my life.
My daughter Michaela arrived and turned everything I thought I knew inside out. She gave my life purpose, depth, clarity. And a reason to return to myself.
Years later, when my son Dominik was born, he brought fire. He didn’t let me forget who I was or why I came here. Through him, I started questioning the systems I had once surrendered to. Especially the ones we call “normal.” Education. Parenting. Self-sacrifice. He mirrored the pieces of myself I hadn’t yet dared to meet. And I started listening.
In 2020, our family moved to Italy. Surrounded by nature, mountains, and new rhythm, something in me softened. And then Neli came, born in August, under the stillness of a global pause. Her presence brought with it a deeper awakening. It was after Neli that I really began to explore yoga. Not as a trend, but as a lifeline. I began to learn about energy, crystals, the chakra system, and the body as a sacred instrument. I started to remember ancient things I’d never been taught. Truths that lived in my bones, not my books.
Then, in 2022, we traveled to Costa Rica. We had seen La Ecovilla in a documentary, and we went to see it in person. But the thing that struck me wasn’t a place. It was the land. The jungle. The rivers. The air. There was something ancient and alive there. Something my nervous system recognized before my mind did. It wasn’t logical. But it was undeniable. I felt seen by something much older than me. And I knew I had touched something I would never be able to forget.
And then came Isabella. In 2024, she was born into my arms, wide-eyed and luminous. And in the quiet, postpartum nights, as I held her against my chest and stared into the dark, Costa Rica came back. Not as a memory, but as a call. That’s when I knew: It was time.
Time to stop dreaming about the life I longed for and start living it. Time to choose a way of being that matched the rhythm of my soul.
So I began...
I didn’t have it all figured out. I still don’t. But I had the only thing I needed: clarity in my heart and the courage to follow it. And from that clarity came Pura Maracuya. It’s not a brand. It’s not a business plan. It’s a living, breathing space where truth is safe, softness is power, and every soul is welcome. Not just women. Not just seekers. Not just mothers.
Everyone who longs to come home to themselves.
I’m not here to guide from above. I’m walking this road with you, learning, forgetting, remembering again. I’m the woman who cracked open through motherhood, heartbreak, awakening, stillness, chaos, and chose to build something beautiful from it all.
So this is me.
And this is Pura Maracuya.
Not perfect. Not polished. But honest, alive, and real. Not perfect. Not polished. But honest, alive, and real. If you’ve read this far, maybe something in you recognizes something in me. And maybe that means you’re ready too. To soften. To listen. To come home.
With all my love,
Michaela
There was a time in my life when I moved through the days like a machine.
Wake up, survive, get things done. Even in the most sacred seasons of my life, becoming a mother, starting over in new countries, opening new chapters... I often felt like something was missing. Not because I wasn’t grateful. But because I was disconnected. Disconnected from myself. From the present moment. From the invisible thread that makes life feel sacred, even in the ordinary.
And then I started creating rituals. Not the fancy, elaborate kind you see on Pinterest. Simple ones. Ones that felt like me.
Lighting a candle before journaling. Taking a deep breath with my tea before the first sip. Whispering an intention before I open my computer. Putting one hand on my heart and one on my belly before I respond in anger. Dancing for three minutes in the kitchen while dinner cooks.
Looking into my child’s eyes and silently saying, “I see you”, even if just for a moment. These little acts changed everything. Because ritual is not about doing more. It’s about doing with presence. It’s a way to return to myself in a world that constantly pulls me away. A way to say: I am not just surviving. I am living. I am feeling. I am remembering.
In a world that glorifies hustle, ritual slows me down. In a culture that numbs, ritual makes me feel. In days full of noise, ritual becomes a gentle anchor, reminding me of who I am beneath the chaos.
Ritual is why I created Pura Maracuya.
Not just a place. Not just a brand. But a space where the sacred is invited back in. Where cacao is medicine, not trend. Where breath is prayer. Where even washing your face can become a ceremony of self-love. This isn’t about perfection. It’s about presence. It’s about remembering that your life is not something to rush through. It’s something to feel. To honour. To live inside of, moment by moment.
And if you don’t know where to start... start small.
Pick one moment a day. Breathe. Light something. Whisper a word. Place your hand on your body. And just be there. You don’t need a full moon to make it sacred. You just need to show up. That’s the magic. That’s the ritual.
With love,
Michaela
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